Monday, October 10, 2011

I should have known - Part 2 (The madness)

To the reality, I snap back,
A moment that I were to crack.
The ground I stood, vanished
When it was to be me, the one banished.
A time that'd come to take me down
I should have known

Flyin' in my mind, ghosts of the past
Them, I can't see, they fly so fast!
In flashes they'd stop and still
Your eyes I'd see, they kill!
There I am and my mind so blown
This was coming, I should have known


A lifeless life, a zombie walk
All this and little that I talk
There was but a purpose defeated
And nothing around, I was belittled
Out of the throne I was thrown
This, I should have known


All that were heaven, turned hell
With a hand not to hold, i fell
Done in were the sweet dreams
Breakin' sleeps with nightmarish screams
Inside my head there'd be a cyclone
That one, I should have known


Visions, people, feels, all surreal
A world apart from that one so real
With no compass, an endless drift
Into the dark, searching a lost gift.
A voice from within, a gloomy tone
Says, I should have known.

Premkumar.
Oct 10, 2011.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I should have known - Part 1 (The dawning of the dusk)

Dry, cold and late - it was just another night
Written in my fate, the last i felt right
Hit me not the tropical summer
For the inconveniently chilling emotional slumber
Is that to come from my own?
Well, I should have known

Years down the memory lane
Oceans sweeter than the cane
The love that you lent-
The missing ingredient
What in me have you sown?
Well, I should have known

Walls of care; joy and tears
In your eyes, pure and clear
The shining, pricking glare
Veiling reality, oh, do I really care?
Before I took your crown
I should have known

In anger, happiness and sorrow
Its your time I had to borrow
Together we'll grow, you promised!
Oh, how is that to be missed?
There is a world to be dealt with, alone
I should have known!

Many my mistakes were
Nevertheless you know, I do care
I forgot my life, way and vision
Living a dream; a delusion
I was becoming your clone
Perhaps, I should have known!

I found 'cause of you, a purpose
This I sure must confess
I changed, for the good or bad
For I was so inane or mad
This was getting to my bone
Darn, I should have known!

You taught me love, care and emotions
You alleviated all my worst premonitions
I fell, I had your hand to hold
Now I walk with my hands in pocket, not bold
To face the world's  unforgiving cold
Staring at the path I was never shown
For once, I should have known!

Premkumar